the hard feeling

it is not i want to feel so isolated. is because what your reaction and action made me feel insecure, you are changing, i can feel that. The gaps is getting bigger, my worries is becoming wider and wider. When will this stop? it is about US. not alone. maybe when Im not around, you will be more happier.

此刻的心情

进了大学那么，有时还会觉得很孤单，寂寞。
要说没有朋友也不是，有朋友也不是。
一个人，想着想着。泪就自己掉下了。
感觉世界放弃了我。
从小到大，都会永远顺别人的意。
到底什么时候才会学着说“不”呢。
一直都要想着别人的感受，结果自己吞下所有怨气，一切都放在自己心里。
曾经试过，憋着憋着，到最后一个人自己哭得像瀑布一样。
长越大，流血还比流泪容易。人生多少波折都自己独自扛。不想连累到他人。
结果自己受重伤。受了伤自己疗伤。可是有些伤永远都不能疗好。
疤痕永远遗留在那儿。
这宁静的夜晚，独自喝着最喜爱的啤酒，什么都不想想了。。

14th Buffday of My youngest Brother

20.12.13- its 20th of Dec, my little brother buffday

When we grown up, we will start to be mature. Thinking of those days the eldest always treats those youngsters during their birthday or any festival celebration. Is it a must for the eldest to treat the youngster? Well, I do think is one of the way to make communication works and create bond. Spending money to make each other closer is actually a natural phenomena in our daily life.

I always think of what can I do to make my bond with my family members closer.HMM~~

Maybe because my siblings are all brothers, that's why there is a gap between us. I felt it is due to a man ego-ness? haha.. 

During my childhood, I still can get to play lots of masak-masak ( children toys). But when I look into my little brother, there isn't any masak-masak he could play of. He makes me feel I'm really should appreciate what I have during my childhood. My parent indirectly taught me I should start to care of my brothers always. As I'm growing, they do grow older. Limitation always happened in any perspective of our activities. I do hope I can help to ease my family burden very very soon.
back to the headline of TODAY!! I brought my brother and my sweet girlfriend for a movie as a treat for his birthday. We watched " Frozen" !! Its kinda nice especially OLAF aka the little cutie snowman~~
Afterthat we went for our family dinner, its been a tradition in my family that on any of our birthday, we will be going out for a dinner. After arguing where to go for dinner, finally we enter the restaurant that has been our family favourite- RESTORAN ANIKARAGAM (AH NEH) it is really sound like Indian restaurant, but ta da~ Its a chinese restaurant.

fried sotong

smashed ginger Fish

Tie Pan Oyster Eggs

macam YES ~~ tapi BUKAN ~~ haha

Curry Prawn

Zap Choi

ROU SUI TOUFU

So so so full after dinner. So we decided to have a walk at dataran pahlawan. Heard it has been halfway of renovation but already have a few shops started operating. Thats been a long since my last dating with all my family members in Dataran Pahlawan. I was "WOW" when I first saw the exterior of the newly renovated shops in DP. They are more and more luxurious shop in there. ALDO, Charles & Keiths, UNIQLO and etc.

We reach there too late, so we only manage to walk for 1hour cause we will be stuck in a massive jam if we do not leave earlier. A birthday wouldn't be perfect without a cake. But too bad, according to God's belief, my brother can't blow candle and cut cake for this year. However, we still have a special cake for him!! haha.. Well, after dp, we went to a dessert shop that we have never been, SWEET HUT (sounds like sweet heart). We ordered the shop most famous cake - LARVA CAKE 心太软. For me ,is just so so only. The price is just over priced. Not much choices as the price is really "low".

=THATS ALL FOR MY LITTLE BROTHER BIRTHDAY= ^.^

My self declared HOLIDAYSSS part 3

18/12/13
phewww~~ time flies, 3days at KL had just passed..
time to go back malacca ~
but before we went back to malacca, we saw FIPPER sales!!
buy 3 free 1, 1 @ 9.90 only..
cause we are FIPPER fans.. so ..hiak hiak hiak..

once we reach malacca, tummy hungry hungry.. 

so we went to PAK PUTRA !! 

the best naan in malacca and we just love the spinach.

spinach came too late, our foods finished half..haha

 we doozed off the day by doing mask! tee hee ~

19/12/13

we feel so lazy.. but I promised her to bring her to eat long missed Uncle Botak's Nasi Lemak.

the stall was situated beside IJC,if you are IJ girl, you will know..

and now their stall are located at melaka baru food court, is just behind wilson chicken rice at melaka baru traffic light.

went to GIANT and back home~

my pretty pretty baby buu ~ <3 td="">

My Self Declared HOLIDAYSSS part 2

well oh well ~ after spending our first day in the centre heart of KL, on the second day we head to somewhere that are from SWEDEN ... hehe
Its IKEA , it is just opposite of THE CURVE.
I still remembered the very last time Im in IKEA was 10years back I think? o.0

Something came up in my mind when shopping in IKEA,thinking of those prices of furniture, will it increase in future? so how much will I have to earn and save to have a comfortable house for my own family in future?
@.@

Spent almost 300++ in IKEA just for 2 swivel chairs (wish to get one since long ago), 2 table lamps, 2 chairs pillow and a few miscellaneous ..
After shopped at IKEA, we want to get back to our car, the most funniest thing is we forgot where we parked our car!! haha..
then tried using alarm to search for it and finally we found it, it was below us.
after putting all the stuffs in the cars, we go back to have our teatime at IKEA, but dont know how we walk walk walk and reach Ikano Power Centre.. 0.o
went to Brands Outlet and Padini (our favourite place to shop for clothes)
was not able to take photo of our teatime due to short of time. spend only rm8 for tea time in IKEA,but satisfied.
jiang jiang jiang ... a short video of baby buying ice cream~ haha